10 November 2008

false hopes

wazzah..

i got absolutely no fucking mood to do that, but i still had to.

why do they always give u false hopes one day and take it all away the next? i know all of u must have thought i was happy for the past few days.in fact i was, but i guess i'm not anymore.i nvr ever stay happy for long anyways.u guys should know that.hahaha.it's just the way it is.

AND I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE SMOKING RIGHT NOW.FUCK!

i guess i should just stick to playing soccer.one life, one dream.

i'm running away, i'm leaving this place.
if i had the chance, i would definitely leave this fucking hell hole.
yeahyeah, i'm emo.whatever.

on a brighter note, something weird happened to me this afternoon.was with shafiee and anand at the bus stop smoking area cos they were smoking, then din came along.while we were talking, there was this girl who walked from the bus stop towards business school.like suddenly got a white light appear behind her and i just couldn't take my eyes off her.even when she was staring back at me.then i started to feel hot and my face went red.hahaha.that was seriously WTF! even when i look at girls i never ever stare for so long and i definitely won't feel hot and my face won't turn red.she was seriously, i dunno how to explain.WOAH! hahaha.ohh damn, can't stop thinking about her..

check out this song.it's broken by lifehouse.and check out running away by midnight hour too.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

recorded at 11:56 PM

/ /