31 May 2008
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WAZZAH!!!
FUCK ALL THIS SHIT MAN...I'M FUCKING SICK AND TIRED..
*read at your own risk,if read already not happy let me know*
no mood to say but it's the trademark so ya...one of the worst fucking days ever.it just keeps getting worse.already so fucking stressed with
FYP.need to figure out how to get fucking 100 000 bucks to purchase the motion platform.if not our project might be not as good as it's supposed to be..feel so helpless,so useless.
and to add on to that,
kenna ignored like some fucking loser.people who i always considered as friends totally ignored me.it was as though i wasn't there, as though i was non-existent..so sad and disappointed.asked them who wanna go play pool? some like interested..after finish the stupid
AGM shit, all want to go back to club.don't wanna go tell me first
lah,fuck...walk all the way back to club then tell me don't want.we used to be close friends..always going out together and stuff.after u 2 got together i become extra, not important anymore..even people who consider me as their good friends ignored me.when leaving business block,talk to u halfway then just walk away..luckily still got
clare walk with me, if not so
emo sia..i wonder how people stay so positive all the time.how can u fucking stay positive when all this shit keeps fucking happening to u? even the girl i care most about didn't even realised anything, never even ask what happened when i
nvr reply.u know
i'll always reply u as soon as i get your
msg.the
indescribable feeling of missing you..called but no answer.i guess u must be asleep.i need u..might not be able to see u for 3 weeks,i wonder how will i survive..where's everyone when u need them?
maybe sometimes pangseh them cos of "other reasons".now kenna retribution ah...as vincent always say, "karma".
so when we become year 3 we're not important anymore.all those people u always thought cared
abt u just don't seem to care, don't seem to give a damn
abt u..
luckily got reeve and
denan at least..bros for life man..sorry if i scared u,
ratna.i didn't mean it.i was seriously pissed, felt like an outcast, totally
kenna ignored by people..i always tried to be there for them when they needed someone.not one of them even bothered when i needed someone.hahh..maybe die also they don't know.sad sia..
and
miswan, i totally agree with u.u said that when i
emo, the whole world seems to be at fault.that's so true cos
i'm fucking sick and tired of my life.study,
fyp,friends,stress,everything comes into the picture.what a fucked up, boring life..
damn,i need to go for anger management.my temper is getting from bad to worse..
when all is lost, when no one gives a damn about u.don't worry, there's still one thing that will always be there to accompany u.cigarettes...they will never ignore u.
one more fucking thing that makes me fucking pissed.u already fucking graduate,mingjian.stop fucking coming back.get a life ah sia.go work or something.see u fucking anti-climax sia.faster go army and shave your balls.everytime see denan must bastard him for what? fucking racist bastard..he indian so what? must keep on insulting him ah, motherfucker? u act like u gd friends with him only, keep on insulting.if not in sch he fucking whack u up already ah,u fucking pussy.only know how to talk..
when no one gives a damn about you, that's how i feel.so lonely........
Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I won't survive
recorded at 12:56 AM
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