06 February 2008
we are ISLANDERS!
WAZZAH!!!it's been a long time since the last update.had chalet with the mmec ppl and amron from monday to wednesday.it would have been good if not for a few fucked up stuff happening.laughed like hell during crapp talking sessions.but somehow i didn't really laughed much.maybe if she didn't come everything would have been better.had LUGE races with amron, denan, eugene, miswan, zaid and jianyao.2 day races and 1 night race.the night race definitely owns because you can't really see much of the track.amron and me even went out of the track onto the grass area.the sentosa LUGE rocks man.especially if u're an ISLANDER! hahaha.i feel so weak in sentosa without my islander card.its only 5 bucks per ride.LUGE is gonna become a weekend activity for MMEC and amron from today onwards.the hut is seriously small.two double decker beds and a small alley in between.but it's good in a way that you won't really wanna spend alot of time in it.meaning that you will wanna be out of the place for most of the time.we did cannonballs after cannonballs at the pool during the day and played "volleyball" at the beach.took a really long time to reach like 14 consecutive volleys.hahah.when the pool was closed at night, the SWATGODS decided to make a stunt video.will upload it after miswan edits it.hahaha.it will be cool.so look out for it guys.will upload the pics and videos on a later date.if u're interested in more MMEC videos.go to www.youtube.com and search under SP MMEC or just MMEC.maybe i'll stop smoking.cause the feeling isn't as shiok anymore.and it doesn't ease the pain already.cause it's too much..
overall, the LUGE races were the best(: p.s. amron, we're gonna beat you.just you wait.
and here is one of my birthday pics.
thats the girl i care so much about.but she probably hates me.just so you know,i really cared so much about you, but it seems like things just won't work out this way.i wished we could go back to how it was.but nothing lasts forever.all i wanted was for you to be happy.but i guess you'll be happier when i'm not anywhere near you.
everything in blue in this blog is for you.this was supposed to be a happy entry.but i guess it isn't.
the sentosa trip would have been so much more enjoyable if those things didn't happen.abt that msg.i was just asking where you went as a friend.i wasn't expecting a report of any kind.and you definitely don't have to report a thing to me.cause it doesn't matter anymore.well, it seems like you did all those things on purpose to prove your point.but you didn't have to go to that extreme.cause i got your point damnit.first was the phonecall.you purposely made it so obvious that it was a guy that you were talking to.second, you just had to invite him over didn't you.and not only that, you had to purposely sleep on amron's shoulders, right in front of me.i wasn't even intending to do anything after i told you the truth.you seriously didn't have to go to this extreme to hurt me.i guess you will never understand how much it hurts.felt like blades piercing through my heart, tearing it apart.cause all you ever do is hurt me.i wish we could be so much more than friends.but it seems like you don't even wanna be friends anymore.if that's the case, i hope you'll just stay away.maybe it's better for the both of us this way.there's no one else that affects my mood like you do.i guess you should know why i've been emo everytime you're around.everytime i'm happily talking to the rest, you just have to show up and spoil my mood.thanks yeah? all i wanted was to feel appreciated by you, for all the little things i did for you.but i guess i never got a thankyou of any sort.ohh well,it's not like everyone gets appreciated by the things they do.i just wish you knew how much i cared about you.and how much it hurts when you did all those things during the last 3 days.it seriously hurts like hell.i don't know why you keep doing this to me.this isn't exactly the best way to make me give up on you.i guess everyone deserves a chance but it seems like i won't be getting any.i wished things wouldn't have to turn out this way.if i could go back in time to take away something from my past, it would be getting to know you. i guess we should just stay away from each other from now onwards.
i don't even know whether i love or hate you anymore.i'm in a mess, like totally.i don't know what i'm feeling anymore.i don't know what's going through my head, let alone yours.